Monday, January 4, 2010
Can you please just say you believe in me?
Doing some random browsing tonight at Target... i received a phone call from my mother( i love her dearly)... ok wait let me back this up and preface a few things i finished cosmetology school a little under a year ago but do to some circumstances completely out of my control(financially) i still haven't been able to take my test and get my license... with all that said let's go back to to the convo with mi madre... she basically talking to me about helping pay off the rest of what i owe so i can take my test and finally get my license... yeah!!! awesome!! I am really excited about this..(more prefacing) As some of you know and for those of you don't before i got out of school last year i really sought the Lord about what the next steps should be in my career and for a while things just felt of... really cause i was seeking out what place i should set instead what the Lord's plan really was.. after a lot of prayer and a lot of disbelief and then a lot of conformation i knew that working a salon was not what i was supposed to be looking into doing...i knew that whatever and wherever i was to end up doing was going to be nothing but a work of God... about a month after getting out of school i knew i was to start a business... just me doing what i love to all for the Glory of God... after talking with my mentors and my parents and those who are a real covering in my life there was so much more peace about taking real steps forward into building a business from the ground up.... (back again) while on the phone my mom suggest for me to go work in a salon.. mainly for the money aspect of it all... which i completely understand she doesn't want to see me struggle in life however... it felt like she was saying i don't believe in you and your dream. Yes she did say that i could do my own thing too and even have three jobs and still work at the coffee shop... but all i heard was you aren't good enough to make it.. you aren't making it.... i know that wasn't her intention by any means.. i know that she wants nothing but the best for me.... Sometimes i just need her to be my cheerleader... my #1 FAN... i need her of all people to just believe in faith with me... to just say I Believe in YOU and what the Lord has for you.
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Jazz, you are such a truly beautiful woman of God! I know that God has amazing plans for you, and I love that you don't want to settle for a salon job, but rather chase your dreams and calling. That takes a lot of guts! You can do it, girl! I believe in you. I'll keep you in my prayers also.
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Emma Leigh.
No one will believe in your dream or vision quite like you do. They will never see it how you do or even how God views it. This is the beauty of the journey because it would easy if it all worked out how you thought it would. No matter what anybody says you have to listen to voice within you now the voices around you. The enemy can use the smallest things to get you distracted...stay focused because the enemy wants you to not believe in the very thing your the most passionate. Keep seeking and you shall find....knock and He will answer...
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Jazzyyy... love you and your honesty, so much. I definitely can understand that desire for validation from your mom. I sought that a lot from my parents with this trip coming up. I didn't get it. But honestly... you can rest in knowing that your heart is validated in God's will for your life. He has such a plan for you and it WILL happen... hopefully that confidence in God will be conveyed to your momma. Having her approval is definitely a blessing... but your trust in God even when it seems like no one else sees things the same way is what is so much more important. :) Plus... I believe in you. :)
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