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Rushing

Did i rush

did i move to quickly

did i fall into deep

was i wrong

maybe i'm off my rocker right now

maybe i'm a little off my rocker all of the time

i need peace...

i need peace

i need a calmed spirit

Jesus i need you

I need your faithfulness

i need your peace

i need your calm spirit

WEBSITE ACTION

hey friends just wanted to share something amazing with all of you! today my new website was published! as some of you know this has been a long time coming. so check it out and tell what you think!

www.jazzdavis.showitsite.com

Enjoy!

-jazz

sneak a peek...

so i've been working on some shoots in the last few weeks nothing major but something that i am indulging myself in here's a little taste of what i am gonna do for the rest of my life... thank to the amazing Kbaergen for letting me create a masterpiece and the always gracious Sarah Barlow for capturing it all...

let me know what you think!

-love

Jazz

In this thing together..

Just take my hand... do you trust me? Come by my side and walk with me come know me. This is my relationship with the Lord! It's a sweet disposition, I am being and i have been pursed by the most amazing Man to ever walk this Earth. Every single day i take him for granted. I think past all the good and focus on the bad, i nag i bitch and i complain that he hasn't come through for me even though time and time again he has shown himself to be faithful. Song of Solomon i think describes it best in chapter 2 verse 3 ³Like an apple tree among the trees of the wood, so is my beloved [shepherd] among the sons [cried the girl]! Under his shadow I delighted to sit, and his fruit was sweet to my taste. Do you know what the roots to this tree are... they are faith. Faith is believing in that which is unseen. My beloved savior, lover and friend... our relationship is solely based on faith. Faith in his word(The Holy Bible) faith in who he is ( the Son of God) and faith in all he says that he is(Jehovah,Yahweh,Elohim,Emmanuel...check the cheesy website ...http://www.lillyofthevalleyva.com/jesuslovesyou-godsnames-complist.html).

Do i know this man, do i know this Lord, is my relationship with him built on anything other truth? He is ABBA father, how do i know he won't just leave like my earthly father? I know because he wants nothing but good for his children he wants nothing but, His words says that he will never leave me nor forsake me. (Deuteronomy 31:6) I know this because he takes of all of our needs and not just ours but the birds and he beautifully clothes the Lilly's (Luke 12:22-32).

Learning to trust the man you love is hard when you don't know how to trust. Yet when the Man you love teaches you how to trust fully and completely you have nothing left to hold you back except for yourself! i realized that a relationship takes more than one person... it's give and take you can't go in it alone. The Lord told me today that we are in this thing together...

the choice

i see it, i know it's there don't wanna deal with it just wanna walk away so far that it is off in the distance and blurred to my sight. i take a step back and it takes a step forward... just let me be let me go instead it's grip gets tighter . i close my eyes and it goes away... at least for a little then all of a sudden it comes back up vomit with the taste on the back of your tongue but this time it's not going to go away it's never going to leave. Today you have a choice of either holding on or walking this out of your life.

the choice is yours... well really it's mine.

choose.

Two more Days!!!

Since it has taken me all day to get ready and get out of my house the best place for me to venture to is where else but to one of the many local coffee shops in beautiful Nashville. It's a gorgeous summer day a few clouds in the sky but just right amount for a day like today. Sipping a well steeped chai it's about time for me to reflect on life.

In less than 48 hours i will be venturing into the land of the mid 20's ... at least that's how i feel since 25 means you a quarter of a century old. why is it this is the last birthday i am actually looking forward to? to be honest it's because from here on out i'm just getting closer to 30, 40 , then 50...this birthday is slowly turning into a much dreaded day.... not really but i have to be a little dramatic about lol!!!

For only turning 25 i feel like i have lived a lot of life. I feel like i've seen high's and lows of life. However if i had see it all i guess i still wouldn't be here lol! I am so thankful for the Life i have so freely been given to live and i am so thankful for the people that have walked this life along with me. I am so excited for the next 25 years to come. I am excited to see who it is that Lord has to walk with me through those years and i so excited to see and live the parts of life that i have yet to experience!!!

So here's to another birthday, here's to another 25 years and here's to living the dream that Lord has placed in your heart!!!

-Jazz

ok Jesus how bout what I need right now???

YOU are Jehovah Jireh Lord i have a need... a physical need. Here i come knocking on this door again. I don't know what else to do i don't know where else to turn but to the one who is my provider. You are the source you are the only thing i can turn to! Lord i need strategy Lord i need peace i need rest i need my Daddy

Speak and break the silence

After writing last weeks blog and really giving myself some time to just sit and think and be silent before the Lord... I had a revelation while sitting in church last Sunday. Really it was more the Lord kinda smacking me in the face with reality... BTW i need that more often than not... The Lord told me i have to break the silence. Fear in my life was making me silent even in my own home... i couldn't remember the last time i prayed out loud, i couldn't remember the last time there was a roar of praise coming from my lips.

So often as Christians(Christ followers,those who are like Christ)we forget what it means to really be a christian. Do you think Jesus was saying quiet whispering prayers when he was in the Garden of Gethsemane praying for his cup to be taken from him.(Matt 26:39 NKJV) I am going to guess not so much... the same way you can't communicate with another person silently you can't communicate with God with out speaking. I mean really, think about it the whole world was SPOKEN into existence ... this is the power of life in death in the tongue.(Prov 18:21) we overcame by the blood of the lamb and the WORD of our testimony(Rev 12:11) In the beginning was the Word( John 1:1)... When you give your life to the Lord you confess with your mouth and with your mouth you are saved(Rom 10:9-11).

I Broke the SILENCE!!! This morning I went to the secret place with boldness and i prayed as Jesus taught us to pray saying :

Our Father in Heaven, Hallowed be your name.

Your Kingdom come Your will be done

on Earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread

and forgive us our debts

as we forgive our debtors

And do not lead us into temptation

but deliver us from the evil one.

For Yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever Amen.. (Matt 6:9-13)

Ladies and Gents it's time to break the silence. When the devil can silence you he has no reason to be threatened by you. The words that struck me to the core "the devil want to silence you.... so you ain't sayin you ain't prayin" -PD Evrist...

this is just one small step on the journey i know the Lord is taking me on..so far it's has been an adventure of epic proportion!

The Posing of Questions ???

Sitting in a local coffee you alway see people working studying living. Today i don't feel among the living, not that i feel among the dead, i feel among the lost. As one of those lost amongst themselves deep inside of there own self conscience.( i know this sounds like inception but really it's about being lost in your own reality. Lost in what you know as truth.

All of my life people have told me that there is a plan and a purpose for my life. I know this is true because i have seen the Lord move on my behalf in my life He has saved me from so much and has brought me to a place of pure brokenness before him. Yet even though i know these things to be true you can't see the fruit from it in my life you can't see any of it. If it is true that you live your life by what you believe to be true then i believe that emptiness, apathy, and confusion are the way they way to God. I have been living my life on E(empty). My glass isn't even half full most days... just kind of going and going try to be who am supposed to be without any guidance or real direction.

The reason for this is simple... I DON'T TRUST HIM!!! and by Him i mean the source the only thing in life worth living for. It has nothing to do with me not wanting to trust it has everything to do with not knowing how to trust. I don't know how to look to him as a loving father when i never had one. is that an excuse no it's just the deep rooted issue of the truth. There is no trust on my part which therefore means there is no confidence in who is.

However this question was posed to me today... "what would you do if nothing (time, money, education,etc.) were an obstacle and you had full confidence in God?" Phil.4:8 says

^"8 Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things arejust, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things."

Today i choose to meditate on theses things...still not really knowing how to answer the question that was posed to or even how to trust God or to have confidence in him. there will be more on this to come i know the Lord is speaking to me and i know i just have to my ear to his words... choosing faith and choosing obedience over my own desire and my own will.

Please pray for me as i walk through this Journey of healing of hope and of understanding.

-Jazz

Labels on life!

My life has always been filled with colorful things from my wardrobe to my thinking! I've come to enjoy life with some pretty colorful people as well!! i've lived a life full of hmm what could possibly happen in my life next, what is going to be the next thing that I am supposed to do... in life i look forward to the daily gifts that the Father gives ... the endless possibilities for surprise and being Flexible.

Been doing some thinking lately... what is the culture i've embraced as my own? looking at basic things; the way i dress, the type of music i love, how much i love the everyday pleasures of life, as well as the i think about life in color instead of black and white. i am a firm believer that God created people to create, He placed you on the planet for a reason not just sit around and do nothing with the short time He has so kindly given you!

I never thought i would be one to say such things but after spend some good quality time evaluating my life, my style, really just who i am and the way i think about life.. i have come to the conclusion that i am a hipster!!! lol no worries so are all of my friends. I am not alone in this life of discovering who i am as a person and who i am in Christ! Being a hipster is a subculture it's not just a look, it's kind of a way of life...that is if you want to put labels on things...lol!

For those of you who need some reference for what i am talking about here's a little help from urbandictionary.com

www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=hipster

it's first the one up there, a little long but you will get the idea.

Happy labeling,

Jazz

it's a new season

so i started writing again... today i am choosing to let the Lord flow through me and see what happens. Since moving to Nashville that thing i wanted to pursue was music ... but today i am going to write...

feels like a mouth!!!

it's day's like today that make me question why i moved to the south... there is no point in showering for the next few months because it feels like a mouth outside!!! yup i said it A MOUTH!!! you may be wondering how i know what the inside of a mouth feels like i mean really stick your fist in and find or just walk down 12th south with a popeye from frothy and you will without a shadow of a doubt know exactly what i a talking about

this kid knows exactly what is up!!!

TODAY I DON'T WANT TO BE AN ADULT.... JUST WANT TO BE A KID!!!! YOU I DO!!!!

Let's talk about the Girl Talk!!!

Ladies ladies ladies!!! I had an amazing conversation with a friend today. (thanks for the pool time KB) So here's the question.. how many of you out there are plain and simply amazing...the kind of girl any guy should be so happy to even have in his presence..lol... well maybe not that amazing... but how many of you think to yourself " man i'm cute, i have great things going for me... i am so worth it! And yet you always find yourself short of getting a boys number and if you do get hit on it's cause he was a real creeper... Ladies I know i'm not the only one out there. So it's true girls can be intimidating we can be overwhelming in numbers...but how many of you really hang out with that many girls...don't get me wrong i love my girls but when we go out it's rarely just us girls hanging it's always the crew...which happens to include a group pretty good looking guys(ex.A above) that none of us would ever date cause well they are the safe zone(sorry guys...but it's true). However i have never in my life been a place of life where i can't get a date any i discovered why the other day and a few friends have had the same epiphany.. we look taken ... ladies we have unknowingly placed ourselves in the off limits zone and these guys are the reason why. Am i saying you shouldn't have guy friends absolutely NOT! I am saying we need to be open and when you allow yourself to be open the right opportunity may just fly right by you cause you wanted to hang with the guys. I love my guys friends they are some of the most amazing characters i know... they keep life in perspective... they protect you like a brother would to his sister but Ladies you shouldn't want to date your brother. These guys are gentlemen and even when they're not you still love 'em. The moral in all of this keep your self open and available to be swept off your feet and not covered up by a group of hott body guards who you aren't with!!!

LIFE

i gotta get, i gotta get out of my head..

where do you go when you don't know how to feel

who do you turn to when you need some arms to weep into

i gotta get out , i gotta let go of my heart

trying to remove it from my sleeve

need to move it back into my chest

don't even feel like it still beats

gotta run free gotta get free

need to move need to shake need to dance

NEED TO FEEL!!

My Valentine from my LOVE!!!

You're My Beloved-Kari Jobe

You're my beloved, you're my bride

to sing over you is my delight

Come away with me my love

Under my mercy come and wait

Still we are standing face to face

I see no stain in you my child

You're beautiful to me

so beautiful to me

I sing over you my song of peace

Cast all your cares down at my feet

Come and find your rest in me

I'll breathe my life inside of you

I'll bear you up on eagle's wings

And hide you in the shadows of my strength

I'll take you to my Quite waters

I'll restore your soul

Come rest in me and be made whole

You're my Beloved, you're my bride

To sing over you is my delight

Come away with me my Love!

I just got back from an amazing trip to LA with my amazing friend Marisha! We got to spend all of about 72 hrs in the beautiful sunshine and with some of our amazing friends( Cameron & Chuck best Valentines a girl could ask for). Yesterday was one of those days where you actually feel what has been going on in your life all at once. I've become so numb to so much in the past six months, that i didn't know what it meant to feel and have real emotions(other than bitterness,confusion&anger). In the moment of the most amazing sunset i have ever experienced i felt. i didn't just feel a little i felt it all. I felt every bit of anger, resentment, worthlessness, frustration, pain, hopelessness, etc. down to the joy of the Lord and knowing his arms were around me. Having for the first time a true since on security. In the moments of despair and crying in the backseat of the car i know that Lord was there and even if know one else got it i new he was crying with me. We where having a funeral.

The old me is dead and gone and I am a new creation in Christ! Life might be crappy but i know the Lord has me. I know that he is so much greater than anything this world has to throw at me. I took some time and actually looked at my tattoos today, they all have a meaning and are things the Lord has spoken to me(other than the one on my back lol). The song lyrics above are something that was spoken over me several years and since have continued to be one way the Lord reminds me of his promises He has from. The Word beloved is tattooed on the inside of my wrist. The Lord has been screaming this at me and i've just kinda tuned it out, that i am his beloved. The exact lyrics in this song is everything Jesus has been speaking to me... come away with me.. you're beautiful, my beloved, my bride, i will restore you...all of it!!! I just go it!!!! I needed to go to LA for the Lord to shake me.. so i would stop and listen and this is what he said

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3c9oi5xNIpo

A Lady in Waiting.

I have decided i have resolved

to wait upon you Lord

My rock and redeemer shield and reward

I'll wait upon you Lord ...

Wait is the resounding word i keep hearing from the Lord... These past few weeks of life have been crazy... they have been a little bit of trial by fire. I've felt alone and abandoned I've felt blamed, worthless, ugly, unclean, out casted, confused,bent, broken, numb, yet at the same time I've felt comforted, loved, fought for, blessed, bliss, redeemed, directed,protected, highly favored. I've felt the roller coaster of life and the emptiness the world has to offer. I've tasted the fullness of the Lord and i want more...I want so much more..

So what could i say

What could i do

But offer this heart Oh God

Completely to YOU!!!

Wait for the Lord; Be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.

Psalm 27:14

So i wait, i choose to wait. I am trusting and believing, I am taking hold of my inheritance and i am claiming back all the devil has stolen, I am choosing joy in all things. I am believing in faith for HUGE dreams BIG vision. I wait on God I wait on my Love to lead me to guide into glory into His will.

I want my damn shoe back!!!!

as a little girl you watch movies like Cinderella and you wait in this mindset of one day my prince will come... as you get older well as i got i began to feel more and more like one of the girls in the kingdom trying on a shoe that just doesn't fit, basically cause it wasn't mine... how many of you ladies out have tried on shoes that you thought were yours only to find out again and again that it's not yours? we so often try to fill shoes that we are not called to fill. we are princess, we are ladies in waiting, but i'm at a point where i just want my shoe back! i had a conversation with a few friends about dating and relationships... i'm realizing that i have a misconception of what it looks like to date someone.. hahahahah that's right i do i am admitting it? I want to live in a picture of a perfect world where a boy pursues and i just i pretty much stand back watch my love life unfold for me... this my dear friends is a false reality.. i am way to much of a control freak to put my romantic future in the hands of some boy/man and allow him to just sweep me off my feet.. i want it done my way (which of course is always the right now) LOL i am giggling as i right this.. the reality of the situation is... i don't trust the man the Lord has given my shoe.. i don't trust him to steward it well... i feel like he's gonna break it before he finds that it's my foot it goes on... i think i can do a better job at knowing how to romance myself and taking carer of myself... so damn it i want my shoe back.. i mean really it's made out of glass it's delicate...

your shoe/ glass slipper is a picture of your heart... but one man can truly hold your heart you were created for one other human being, one person to have the most intimate relationship... so what happens when you find that person, you both know, everyone around you knows, but that person walks away... completely walks away because they were scared they were to busy they were preoccupied with all life was offering at the time.. you are left without...the one person who was to protect your shoe just broke it...

yeah i know people say there are plenty of fish in the sea but... none of those other fish as great as they may be have your shoe..

with all that said i want my shoe back i want to hold on and protect it myself.. i want to know it will never be broken... like i said above i have control issues i'm working on those.. until i really let go i guess i'm just not ready to try on my shoe the correct shoe the one made just for me.

Can you please just say you believe in me?

Doing some random browsing tonight at Target... i received a phone call from my mother( i love her dearly)... ok wait let me back this up and preface a few things i finished cosmetology school a little under a year ago but do to some circumstances completely out of my control(financially) i still haven't been able to take my test and get my license... with all that said let's go back to to the convo with mi madre... she basically talking to me about helping pay off the rest of what i owe so i can take my test and finally get my license... yeah!!! awesome!! I am really excited about this..(more prefacing) As some of you know and for those of you don't before i got out of school last year i really sought the Lord about what the next steps should be in my career and for a while things just felt of... really cause i was seeking out what place i should set instead what the Lord's plan really was.. after a lot of prayer and a lot of disbelief and then a lot of conformation i knew that working a salon was not what i was supposed to be looking into doing...i knew that whatever and wherever i was to end up doing was going to be nothing but a work of God... about a month after getting out of school i knew i was to start a business... just me doing what i love to all for the Glory of God... after talking with my mentors and my parents and those who are a real covering in my life there was so much more peace about taking real steps forward into building a business from the ground up.... (back again) while on the phone my mom suggest for me to go work in a salon.. mainly for the money aspect of it all... which i completely understand she doesn't want to see me struggle in life however... it felt like she was saying i don't believe in you and your dream. Yes she did say that i could do my own thing too and even have three jobs and still work at the coffee shop... but all i heard was you aren't good enough to make it.. you aren't making it.... i know that wasn't her intention by any means.. i know that she wants nothing but the best for me.... Sometimes i just need her to be my cheerleader... my #1 FAN... i need her of all people to just believe in faith with me... to just say I Believe in YOU and what the Lord has for you.

A new year A new season A new place of life...

A friend of mine said " i don't make resolutions i make goals"... i though about that for a awhile and came to a conclusion that to really follow through with a resolution you have to have a resolve... something moving forward something driving to complete what you have set out to do. what is your resolve what is making you want to win to finish to even begin? This year i am pursuing my dreams...not just talking about it but truly being about it... this new year is going to be about focus about living a real life and doing real things and reaching real people... my focus isn't about who i cam hang out with or how many people i can meet it's shifting it's about being who i am in Christ... it's about serving people... This year i want to taste, to touch with my heart, to see with my inner eyes the wonder that is God!!... this is a new season... a new place in life.. a new decade.... wow... i want to be about it and not just talk about it...